My Dear

My dear, I figure that since it might be a while until we see each other, I’ll make an effort to tell you what I do every day.
My dear, I’m already regretting telling you that I would send a message every day, because I know that my life must be so dull compared to yours. Well, a promise is a promise, but I just spent all day today on my ass watching television.
My dear, I did all the work that I didn’t do yesterday today, and even though I know I finished everything I can still feel myself trembling with the fear that there’s something I’ve forgotten. I know I need to sleep tonight but I think the adrenaline might keep me up.
My dear, I’m so sorry that I missed a few days. Life caught up to me, and the first thing to be lost was the things that mattered the most to me but the least to anyone else. But what are we if we can’t adapt to life’s challenges? I’ll try to write something every week, and that way I’ll have something better to say.
My dear, today I went to a club and have since reconsidered my life plans. I now know that my true calling is that of a hermit.
My dear, I was thinking, maybe you’re writing something just like this. And then when we see each other, if you are, we can be able to share these small snapshots of imperfect life.
My dear, this last week I went to visit my family, but quickly realized that I had forgotten my toothbrush. So I told them that I was going out to buy some stuff that I forgot at home, and from their reactions you would think that I said I was going to go smoke weed with the kids behind the high school. 
My dear, as I was driving to work today, I was thinking about the patterns in these letters. Does it bother you that I always refer to you as ‘my dear’? Does it bother you that I haven’t asked about your weeks, even though I can’t expect an answer? I hope you don’t mind, and I hope that you aren’t disappointed in me reading these. I know that my life isn’t the most interesting, but I hope you don’t mind hearing these stories.
My dear, my cousin visited a few days ago along with her parents. They’re just starting on college tours, and I just remembered how scared I was back then. I wonder what I’ll think about this point of my life in a few years.
My dear, I went to make breakfast and I was out of anything that I would want to eat this morning, so I looked through the cabinets and found some cereal that I’m pretty sure I bought a few years ago when I was still in school. It wasn’t expired, so I ate it.
My dear, I know you’re real, somewhere, and I hope every day that we’ll eventually meet. I hope I know you when I see you.

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